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Post by Araceli Mariela Ricci on Mar 21, 2011 21:18:48 GMT -8
Ara nodded when he asked her if she wanted food. Yea... she hadn't eaten in a while. She handed him the last few book and then stood up. "Let's got grab some food. Cause... I didn't eat much at lunch... wasn't hungry." Okay that wasn't really true. She just didn't go to lunch. She had been in the forest wandering around just becasue it was quiet and away from people but still safe from Strigoi attacks. And she lost track of time again and then founf the tree and then Dante came and yada yada yada. So safe to say she needed food. She walked over to the door and waited for Dante so they could go grab some food.
((yea Vivian is eating my Ara muse... as I told you via cbox so deal with the fail....))
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Post by Dante Ricci on Mar 21, 2011 21:45:02 GMT -8
Didn't eat much at lunch? Yeah right. Ara could practically eat just as much as Dante could. He never knew how though, she was so tiny. If Ara was taller she could pass for a very short Moroi. Dante put the last few books Ara had handed him on top of the stacks he had created. She must of not gone to lunch. Dante hadn't either. He thought it would of been weird sitting away from her again. So at breakfast he had hi-jacked some food and put it in his bag. And at lunch he sat outside of the gym where he had been training, and ate by himself.
He turned around to see Ara standing near the door waiting for him. He could tell her off for skipping the meal, but where would that get him? No. He wouldn't say anything this time. Maybe she really just wasn't hungry so she didn't go to lunch. Or maybe she was so upset at him that she wanted to avoid him. The sick feeling he had since he had yelled at her in the infirmary returned as they walked through the door and back into the library. Dante concentrated on keeping his vision on the rows of books around them, as they passed by. He really didn't want to say anything, but he just couldn't help it. "Did you not go to lunch to avoid me?" The sadness in his voice couldn't be covered even though he tried to hide it.
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Post by Araceli Mariela Ricci on Mar 21, 2011 23:07:22 GMT -8
Ara walked beside her brother and blinked when he spoke. 'Did you not go to lunch to avoid me?'
She looked up at him and opened her mouth to tell him that she was just not hungry but she couldn't lie. She looked away to hide the cringe her face held and in that one move it was made obvious he had hit spot on. She had wanted to see her brother she really did. And she hadn't wanted to skip out just so she wouldn't have to be near him. She only skiped her lunch because she was afraid. Afraid he was just going to yell at her again. And being yelled at in the nurse's office was bad enough. If he yelled at her in front of the whole school she wouldn't have known what to do. She hated being afraid of her own brother who always kept her safe she really did but she had no clue what else to do but not show up and eliminate the chance of seeing him during lunch. She desperatly fought tears and kept her eyes so that she couldn't see Dante. None of this was fair. She couldn't handle this issue of fighting with him. She saw the door up ahead and she was temped to run out and away as fast as she could but... She wasn't sure she could do that.
She needed to get out of the library though and she hurried out the door and away from the door and leaned against the wall near the corner of the building in plain site of the door if you bothered to look and she slid to the ground. No more. This was it. No more fights or crying after this she was done with it. She couldn't handle it. She sat on the ground against the outside wall of the library and if anyone asked her what she wanted most right then and there she wouldn't say for her parents and sister to not be dead. Ara would say she wanted her brother to hold her close and for them to never fight again. That was what she wanted. She was exausted and she couldn't stop crying again. She felt sort of like she did when Lia and her parents died. She would cry then be okay then she would cry and cry and cry some more then she was fine then repeat. She was sick of this. She wasn't a broken record.
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Post by Dante Ricci on Mar 22, 2011 22:18:02 GMT -8
All the feelings Dante had felt since he had seen Ara in the infirmary came rushing back as he watched her hurry out the library door. She didn't answer his question. She didn't need to. The expression on her face and the look in her grey eyes said it all. She had been avoiding him today at lunch, and who knows how many other times since she had been attacked and he had yelled at her about it. Dante felt sick again. He was so hurt. He didn't know why he just had to ask about it. You should never ask for answerers to questions you don't really want to know. Dante knew that. So why did he feel compelled to her from Ara that she wasn't avoiding him, when it was so painfully obvious that she had been?
Dante stood inside the academy library still as a statue. Some people stared at him from a few different locations. He ignored their stares and tried to focus on not being sucked into the horrible emotions he had lived through the last few days. He knew he needed to find his sister and talk about this. He knew they needed to fix every single thing before things could start getting back to normal. He knew that he didn't want anything like this to ever happen again. But he didn't know what he would say to her this time. Dante usually knew exactly what to say and do, but this time he had no clue. He was just to upset. The one person he loved more than anything felt like she had to hide from him? Was he really that bad? He knew for certain that some people didn't like him, but his own sister being scared of him? That was a new low.
Dante sucked in a deep breath. He didn't know what to do. Maybe Ara just needed to be away from him for a little while. Maybe she just needed some space. She wasn't a little kid anymore, and he knew that, but he couldn't help the urge to protect her that he always had. It just wasn't something he could turn on and off. He couldn't stop caring about her for even one second. Even before their parents and sister died, Dante always was more weary of Ara's safety than Lia's. Lia was older and she knew how to take care of herself, as well as Dante and Ara. But Ara was the baby. She always needed some supervision. And she was always so much smaller than Dante and Lia. Whenever Lia wasn't around and it was just Dante and Ara their mom always used to tell him to make sure to keep a close eye on her. And he always did. He still does today. That's all he knows. Watch out for Ara.
Dante still was unsure of what to do, so instead of thinking about it and replaying everything in his head, like he was attempting to do, he let his instincts kick in. He pushed aside everything he was feeling and shut it all out. Stop thinking about yourself. Your sister was attacked by Strigoi and you yelled at her. No wonder she doesn't want to be near you. Stop being a baby. He needed to find her. His feet moved quickly across the floor beneath him and soon he was outside the library. He paused to think where she might go. Then looking around he saw her sitting on the floor around the side of the building. She leaned against the wall crying. Oh god. Dante hated to see Ara cry, especially when he was the cause of her tears. If he looked at her he would no doubt start tearing up again as well. He forced himself to look away from his sister and instead stared at the wall next to where she sat.
We can't keep doing this. "We can't keep doing this. I love you and I'm sorry. I understand that you're growing up Ara... and if you need space, like," this was so much harder than it should of been "if you need time away from me, you don't have to avoid me. Though I don't blame you for.. " He took a deep breath. "If you want to be on your own that's fine, but you don't need to hide from me. All you have to do is tell me." Dante hoped his sister knew that he would not be mad if she wanted to spend time apart, even though it would suck to not see her for even longer.
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Post by Araceli Mariela Ricci on Mar 22, 2011 22:58:30 GMT -8
As Ara sat on the ground against the wall she thought about the last few days starting with sneaking out. She climbed that tree near the ward and when she was satusifes te coast was clear she ran for it. Then in was of to the park. She sang, Natsha found her and shortly afterwards the Strigoi showed up. And of course Ara being Ara had desided she needed to help dispite the fact she had no clue how to kill a Srtigoi. So she got hurt because of it. Then... Then Dante yelled at her. She started crying harder then and stopped her thoughts. She didn't want to fight any more. She heard Dante's voice but she didn't look over at him. She cringed slightly ay his words. The last thing she wanted was to be away from him for another three days or more.
"Never. Again." she whispered softly still crying. "I was avoiding you because... I didn't want to be yelled at. You were so angry at me beforr and I thought you still were." She looked over at him and hugged her knees. She would have prefered hugging Dante but she wasn't sure. After a moment she shifted and looked at her brother and reached hesitently for him letting him close the distance between them if he chose to do so. "I love you Dante.... And I refuse to let anything like this happen again. Because I have been nothing but miserable and I hate it."
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Post by Dante Ricci on Mar 23, 2011 2:21:03 GMT -8
Dante understood where his sister was coming from. He knew that if she had reacted the way he had toward her, then he would be just as conflicted as she now felt. He had never meant for any of this to happen, but he still just did not understand why she had done what she did. He wouldn't bring it up again though. There was no need. Ara now knew exactly how he felt about what she did. And she had been lectured enough by a few of the guardians. She would never do anything so silly again, that much he knew.
The young novice moved closer to the wall. He turned his body to Ara, and leaned into the side of the building. He didn't want to fight anymore, not with her. He was thinking of what to say when a small hand reached out near his leg. He looked down at his sister who now had her knees pressed to her chest. He listened silently as she spoke. Dante didn't move from where he stood against the wall. He was trying not to cry again. He sucked in another deep breath, and calmed himself. "Let's not do this anymore." He said reaching for her hand. "We're both really hungry let's just go eat ok?" He waited to help her up.
Dante wasn't trying to ignore what had happened, but if they keept talking about it all they'd just end up right back where they started.. upset and not talking to each other. And what good would that do? He would just let it all go this time. He loved his sister and she loved him, and she was safe, that's all that really mattered. "I think they're trying out a new pasta sauce tonight, something with mushrooms." He wanted things to go back to how they were before any of this happened. He promised himself that he would try harder to let Ara have more Independence. She needed to know that he wasn't going to boss her around all the time. But she also needed to know that when he did boss her around it was because he thought he was protecting her.
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Post by Araceli Mariela Ricci on Mar 23, 2011 19:31:34 GMT -8
Ara knew Dante saw him reaching for him. But he did nothing and that only worsened her crappy mood. She was about to pull her hand away when he spoke and held his hand out to her. She took it and as he spoke again she pulled herslef up and nodded. She stood next to him and leaned into his side as she started heading towards the cafeteria. She did need food. She looked up at his and sniffled. "I love you Dante and I never want this to happen again. I never want to fight with you, other then sparring. I don't want to be away from you because I'm scared or anything so I refuse to. This can't happen again. Ever. Now... Let's go get some pasta."
((holy crap... I have no clue why I couldn't make that better...))
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